Talk less

We talk less and less.

Finally we don't talk.

Then one of us asks : Why aren't we talking any more?

Sigh :(

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I'm trying !

I found that long distance relationship is not suitable for me.

Being in relationship but do everything alone, I'm tired of it.

I'm fed up !

I know how annoying I am . Sorry for disturbing you always.

I thought you can't live without me but the truth is I can't.

Yes, you're strong enough .

Yes, you may find a girl which never like me.

Yes, you told me at very first, you will leave me one day.

Yes, you do not hurt me but I hurt myself since the day I fell in love.

You were right, I am a kid, I just need a person guide me in my life.

Is time to protect myself , I can live without you and I'm trying!

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Wish you were here

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

I can be tough, I can be strong

But with you, it's not like that at all

There's a girl that gives a shit

Behind this wall you just walk through it

And I remember

All those crazy things you said

You left them running through my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it, just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

(I wish you were here)

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

(I wish you were here)

I love, the way you are

It's who I am, don't have to try hard

We always say, say it like it is

And the truth, is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said

You left them running through my head

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did

Didn't think about it, just went with it

You're always there, you're everywhere

But right now I wish you were here

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

(I wish you were here)

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

(I wish you were here)

No, I don't wanna let go

I just wanna let you know

That I, never wanna let go

Let go oh oh

No, I don't wanna let go

I just want to let you know

That I, never wanna let go...

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

(I wish you were here)

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

(I wish you were here)

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you here, here, here

(I wish you were here)

Damn! Damn! Damn!

What I'd do to have you near, near, near

(I wish you were here)

Be loyal ?

How to be loyal to our relationship?

Does he think before?

I'm tired of keeping alone.

Tired of pretending day by day.

Tired of waiting for your message.

Tired of everything.

Does he care about me?

Do you know there is no 'free lunch'?

I can't stay positive anymore.

How to remain positive?

累了

没有他的1个月又8天

我已经挨过了那一个月

日子就应该这样过吗

有点累了

:(

Am I annoying you?

You just don't want to pick up the call.

Alright!

Blood~

Oh my, I donated my blood yesterday!
I'm so weak now ~ LOL




Hmm, i pass my 4th day with them,
it was a meaningful day :)

3rd day

My 3rd day without you,
I tried to get myself busy n busy,
did something which is non sense!
Aiks ~
Stop thinking stop thinking stop thinking
I don't want think anymore~
Stop looking stop looking stop looking
I don't want looking at my phone anymore~
HELP! I'm going be crazy :(

The day ...

Yesterday was my 1st day without you,
just a word 'SHIT' .
I kept on looking at my phone yesterday
and when I heard a ring sound, I thought that my phone is ringing.
But there was no message from you.
Oh ya, you had leave me n went back to home.
All alone my 1st day without you, my tears was out of control.
I cried when i was driving, eating, bathing even sleeping.
I tried to stop crying but tears just came out like nobody business.
I end up my 1st day without you n I miss you badly!


Today was my 2nd day without you,
still the same all day alone, kept on looking at the phone
but i received your message today.
I tried to find a place to pass my time...
What a shit day without you~

What else~

There's no easy way,

it gets harder each day!

What else can I do?

Afraid of waking

I realized that he has been here for me,

and its more than I imagine.

Unfortunately,he is going to leave here and be far from me.

It's not a big deal, I knew that he will be far from me one day,

Yes, the day is coming very soon.

I hope that just a dream,

I'm afraid of waking . . .

Love is not fair sometime,

why take over the thing that I used to be,

why leave me there and surfer by myself,

why give me hope and let me drop so deep lastly,

why and why and why?

But love makes people blind always.

May god bless you and me!

Hi 2011, Bye 2010!

GOODBYE to 2010,
WELCOME to 2011.
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My last day of 2010 was bad,
Car got problem then stop at middle of the highway,
felt so helpless and very very down.
I thought I just sit on the car until the next day.
Finally, I met up with him at 11.55pm.
then everything just be fine!

When I'm looking back,
I'm so glad that you guys are with me always
Thanks to all my friends,
glad to know all of you, everyone is a VIP in my heart!
Love you guys & may this year be the best for you & me:)

-My memorable year 2010-

Circle...

Draw a circle, and just a circle.
We walk into a big circle,
it was round and round.
There has no way to return ,
and just a circle there.
Anyway, I guess it is over!
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Aiks

I have little regret to left you behind of me.
You were pop out in my mind suddenly during my hard time.
I was wondering that what should I say if you're pick up my call.
Should I start with how are you?
Where have you been ? and so on ...
Maybe that's the way to connect back but it's weird!

Another side, I think about him..
Aiks. What a difficult life?~

Can I make it okay ?

Now we're going round in the circle.
Boys always want more and more and more.
They just want unlimited wants and needs.
I realized that boys might have few girls at the same time
and they still dare to say I love you even no feel guilty.
What a unfair treatment?


Once you broke the trust, that is very hard to build up all over again.
I trust you is more powerful than I love you.

Can I make it okay and no hurt feeling?
Can I forget all the words that you wrote to her?
Can I forget how you were flirting with a girl?
Can I kick all of this away?
Can I stop acting like nothing when I am with you?
Can I ...

Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
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It seem like...

Hello, MY BLOG ~
It's been a while since I've last posted with you!

Feeling insecure recently,
lots of question pop out on my mind suddenly!
Am I a thief?
Yea, just like a thief steal people thing and scare of return.
Can you looking at me and tell me what do you think?
Yes, I've lost my mind!
Though it seem stupid, but its really insecure to me.

Finishing

People, I was finishing up my training programme
at Putrajaya Shangri-La.
Thanks for the 90 days ~
I gonna to miss all my friends there!
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- Dearest Caryn-

-Beloved Mei Foong-


- Badrul-

-Isz-

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Misssssssssss

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I'm missing the one who makes me laugh,
warm me up and care of me all the time.
I'm thinking about what am I without you.

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Sleep problem

Facing sleep problem currently.
Stop thinking, I don't want think anymore.
Let me sleep for a night, I really tired like hell.
Was there something wrong?
This became my serious problem,
I didn't sleep for 2 weeks,
maybe more than that.
I work more than 8 hours but sleep less than 8 hours.
It is not the way I choose to live,
there's something wrong!
I try very hard to sleep,but FAIL.
Feel bad to take sleeping pill,
can I stop eating this?!
I'm wishing I can sleep right now,
it's killing me :(
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